It’s not for a trip. Not for an emergency fund. Not for something I plan to buy later. I just… save. Every time I get money, I put some aside like it’s automatic. Like it’s what I’m supposed to do.

Sometimes I’ll catch myself scrolling through something I like — a bag, skincare, even food — and I’ll think, “I could get this.” But then I don’t. Not because I’m scared to see my balance go down, not because I think I’ll regret it. I just… don’t.

It’s strange, because I don’t feel proud about it either. It’s not a financial win. It’s just a habit I can’t explain. Maybe it’s comfort. Maybe it’s control. Or maybe I’m just used to holding on to things, even money, without knowing what for.

I keep saving, even when I’m not sure what I’m saving toward. Maybe one day it’ll make sense. Or maybe it won’t. But for now, I just like knowing it’s there, not as a plan, just as part of me.

Maybe it’s less about the money, and more about wanting to feel safe, even if I don’t know what from.

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